u doN’t mEan anything to mE , u mean EVERYTHING to me!

A Thousand Thanks , Mom!

2009-03-22T23:46:00.011+08:00

What "Mother" Means

"Mother" is such a siMple word,
But to me there’s meaNing selDom hEard.
For eveRythiNg I am today,
My mother’s lOve showed me tHe way.

I’ll love my motHer all my days,
For eNriching mY life in so many wAys.
She set me stRaight and then set me Free,
And that’s what the word "mother" means to me.

Thanks for being a wOnderful motHer, Mom!

SteppiNg to the airport,
i do Not noE hoW aBility controlS the teAr aRriviNg at mE.
i duN felt to leT heR leave,but wat to do??
she is beloNgiNg to theRe.......
i caN only laugh aT and prayiNg tht sHe will be happy alwayz.

To goT aloNg onE montH v heR,i come to noE.....
oNe point iS all noT likely sTrangE eVen if havinG distanCe beTween uS.

"Mom,without u,theRe wounld be no Me.Ur love,uR attention,uR guidance,have maDe me who i aM.without u,i wounlD bE losT,wandering aimlessly,without diRectioN oR purpoSe.U showeD me the way to seRve,to accomplish,to peRsevere.WithouT u,theRe woulD be an empty space i coulD neveR fill,no mattEr how i tireD.Instead,bcoz oF u.I have joy,contentmenT,saTisfaction and peacE.Thank you,moM~~I haVe always loveD u,miSsed u and I alwayS will.

I learneD about love froM u,watchiNg uR cariNg ways.In fun-filleD yesterdays,from u I learneD forgiviNg of faults botH big and smaLl.I learneD whaT i kNow abouT liviNg......From u,as u gave life ur all.The eXample u set iS stilL wif mE,I'd neveR want any otheR.I'm thankful for all tHat u taught mE."

u wilL alwayz in my heaRt....

I Love U,MummY!

Super Mom

Mom, u'Re a wonderFul motHer,
So gentle,yet so stRong.
The maNy wAys u show u caRe
Always make Me fEel I belOng.

U're patiEnt when I'm foolish,
U give guidaNce when I aSk,
It seeMs u can do moSt anything,
U're the masTer of every taSk.

U're a depEndaBle soUrce oF comfort,
U're my cuShion whEn I fall.
U help in tiMes of troUble,
U supPort me wheNever I Call.

I love <3 u more than u know,
U have mY toTal resPect.
If I had mY choiCe of moM,
U'd be THE ONE I'd seLect!

喜欢和爱 <3

2009-03-18T14:23:00.004+08:00

喜欢和爱

喜欢一个人，在一起的时候会很开心；

爱一个人，在一起时会莫名失落;

喜欢一个人,你不会想到你们的将来；

爱一个人，你们会常常憧憬明天；

喜欢一个人,在一起的时候永远都是快乐的；

爱一个人，你会常常流泪；

喜欢一个人,当你们好久不见，你会突然想起他；

爱一个人，当你们好久不见，你会天天想他；

喜欢一个人,当你想起他，你会微微一笑；

爱一个人，当你想起他你会对着天空发呆；

喜欢一个人,你会想如果有孩子他一定会很喜欢

爱一个人，会有一天，你会突然好奇，将来我们的孩子会是什么模样；

喜欢一个人,你要的只是今天；

爱一个人，你期望的是永远；

喜欢一个人,是看到了他的优点；

爱一个人，是包容他的缺点；

喜欢，是一个心情；

爱，是一种感情；

喜欢，是一种直觉；

爱，是一种感觉；

喜欢，可以停止；

爱，没有休止；

喜欢一个人,特别自然；

爱一个人，特别坦然；

喜欢一个人,有时候盼和他在一起；

爱一个人，有时候怕和他在一起；

喜欢一个人，不停的和他争执；

爱一个人，不停为他付出；

喜欢一个人,希望他可以随时找到自己；

爱一个人，希望可以随时找到他；

喜欢一个人,总是为他笑；

爱一个人，总是为他哭；

喜欢，是执著。

爱，是值得喜欢就是喜欢，很简单。

爱就是爱，很复杂的喜欢，却不一定爱你。

爱你，就一定很喜欢你。

其实，喜欢和爱仅一步之遥。

但，想不想要迈这一步就看你们要不要迈这一步。

爱，是他在的时候，眼里只有他一个人。

他不在的时候，一切都带有他的影子。

我怕一个人孤独。。。。。

2009-03-18T03:15:00.003+08:00

原来快乐的定义，就是掩饰自己的悲伤对每个人微笑.

可是，这样很累的。现在才知道，笑也会让人累……

有时候，也会在想，自己为什么寂寞。
然后，努力地去找答案。然后，找不到答案，继续寂寞着，一个人寂寞着。
我不知道自己会寂寞多久，也许一年，三年，一辈子。其实一辈子的时间也很短很短。
但如果，找不到那个让自己不再寂寞的人，一个人永远寂寞下去，一辈子会过的很长很长。
现在，经常会自己一个人坐在窗户边，看，想。看那些街上走着的人们，很急。想那些曾经的回忆，很淡，却很真。
即使是已经逝去的东西，像时间，像友谊，像爱情。但想起来的时候还是很高兴它们曾经存在过。

逝去并不是失去，曾经拥有过，也已然是一种幸福。
幸福，应该都是那种苦中带甜的滋味吧。
我是个自私的人。也许可以说，寂寞着的人都是自私的吧。
因为属于自己的东西太少太少，也就不可能这么大方地去遗忘掉，就自私地去记住属于自己的每一个故事，高兴的，悲伤的，爱的，恨的，自私地保存在记忆里，里面有自己的感情，不舍得忘记。

曾经做错过很多事情，说错过很多话，有些事情时至今日还是无法去弥补，有些事情有些话时至今日还是会继续做错继续说错。
我也知道，有些事情不是一句“对不起”就可以淡化的，有些解释是会被人看做是掩饰，是谎言的，是会被人斥为那些千篇一律的台词的。
可是，即使是台词，那一字一词也是我用心想出来的，自己的人生舞台剧我不会抄袭他人的剧本，即使是一句解释和道歉，那也是属于我的一个章节。

已经过了童言无忌的年纪，却依旧犯着一些童言无忌的错误。然后，一边信仰着童话，一边认为着自己已经长大，然后，矛盾着，只剩下，一个人的寂寞。
整理自己这段时间里，每天都在告别一些伤痛，又开始一些伤痛。

很怕一个人孤独，却执著于一个人寂寞。

iNterviEw

2009-03-13T23:23:00.009+08:00

receiveD 2 called yesterday,
onE from mY academy teacher,
anotheR from Make Up For Ever (MUFE) for intervieW.

i detected....mAnY matteRs in u will noT have undeR the foreknowledge to occur!

i gotteN a called from teacher,shE ask whether did i found a job?
i said YES!
i caN guessed something,she wanNa intro me a job,y noT?
"c did u willing to leave here or not..."

leaVe heRe?
i toT wat she mean?

"wat job?where it is?"
"s'pore,they wanteD makE up artisT!"
"lolZ...suRE,y noT?"
"u suRe oR not?if u wan,senD uR profile n portfolio to theM,they will contact u!"

withouT any hesitate....
i wisH to leave heRe......donno y it is?
peRhaps,
everythiNg of minE is goNE!gone!gonE!

For a shorT while,
receiveD jC (a manageR of MUFE) called,for interview.
duN feel to go aftEr i received teacher call,buT.....thiNk of agaiN and again,if i failure how i gonNa finD a job again?
Nowadays,lookiNg for a joB iS one kind oF difficulty to mE!

Preparing 4 interview in diz morning......
went to KLCC fetch daRl,den we go interview together.
b4 1 o'clock wE have to reach Plaza 138,somewheRe arounD KLCC!
luckily that plaCe iS not difficult to look foR,
WE DIDN'T LATE,but.....SHE LATE!
lolz...
we fill in the application form at the meeTing room whilE waiting jC.....

15 min ago...
shE reached!and intro heRself to uS,i'm thE one whom interview 1st....
i show her my portfolio,afTer shE view it,i'm both glad and afraid to heR reaction!!!hahaz...
noe y i say so?
her responD waS.......*shouteD* "OMG!!!!is very nicE,iS diz uR work?"
['sai mM sai gam dai fa ying o'???]
darl waiting outside also can heaR......=="
caN't blame her,mayb she didn'T saw thosE make-up b4,oR mayb my makE-up skills too nice and pro edi!hahaz....*kidding!kidding!*
thE 1st question tht she asked me....
"why MUFE?"
lolZ....coz MUFE lo!!!hahaz
i onlY gave her a sweet smiliNg expressioN,aNd then paSsed!!
believe it???xD

[Ask me,iF u wan to noe the trutH!hahaz....*ignore mE,crappiNG!]

something kinda fuNny,
she said my english is gooD,really OMG.......pooR like hell la wei!
sTandard low~~=(
she ask and said alot about MUFE stuff,i juZ kept........'eRm,erm,erm' only
iN my minD,juZ thinking job of S'poRe!

*skip the part oF darl....lazy to type it.*

iN the eNd,
they tolD me,"u aRe HIRED!"
lolz....
thank you,thank you!kan de qi wo...=)
buT darl so disappointed,shE wish to work together v uS (me and angeliNe)....T.t
i told her,iF i go s'poRe,they will hire heR,den she told me,she wish to go together v me!!
hahahaz,so happY to hear tht,bcoz diz is wat i wish too.....
no worried,
trY mY besT get to u!muackz...

anyway,do not lose confidence to urself,u r still thE besT!ouR skills is same,juZ the course v taken is higher than u!lovE u alwayz~~~xoxo

i neeD to prepare my profile and portfolio aS Fast as possible,hope tht i get a chance to there!

i noE i'm able to losE many things.......think thT iF i be back,i have been aS aLl-out as possible to get back!

wait For mE!!!

右手的爱情......左手的友情 ......

2009-03-09T00:08:00.009+08:00

一直以为自己可以不带走一片云彩，还是在绝望时，发现自己手中仍旧紧紧抓着云彩的尾巴。
　　
　　开放在水中的莲，总是尽力让水中的倒影看起来更加的完美，只是孤独的感受让再怎样完美都还是有遗憾。神情的憔悴总会在隐约中透露，仿佛是种魔力。
　　
　　孤独，虽然每个人都是独自的个体，彼此再怎样的依偎，却仍旧不会谁属于谁。然而，每个人都会在迷恋上之后，想拥有对方的一切。可是自由的天空里，却只有自由的存在，天空也无法拥有全部。

　　爱，已经只是一种语言的幌子。感觉爱已经褪去善变的外衣，穿上拥有和时间约定的永恒契约。因为我已经清晰了我，也清晰了你眼中的我。顾影自怜，因为你而改变对自我的判定，也对过往的判定，我是自由，也是孤独的，却因为爱你而让我的自由更加实在，让自己清楚孤独也是一种美丽的缺憾。没有任何的冲突，没有任何的遗憾，只因为爱上了你。

　　你不会属于我，我也不会属于你。这才会有永久和谐的爱。此刻握你的手，走过每一分钟才会是永恒的开始。自由本来就是爱情的面目，只是我们的私心想拥有更多，才会让爱情失去自由的导向，而走向绝路。

　　分分合合宛如是爱情里的阶梯，到达真爱顶点。别因为外界的眼光而失去抓住爱情的勇气。爱情只是两人世界，添杂出第三者，爱情不再是爱情，模糊了界限，别因为贪婪和害怕而失去了内心的爱情。

　　我从来不会是个刻意去结交很多朋友的人，朋友惟独只有知己，我可以看清你，你也可以看清我。只有如此的接触，交流才不会出现问题。朋友多了，朋友的界限会模糊，而失去对真正朋友的判定。不会和自我世界相冲突的朋友，才会是朋友，即使粘着，懒着，都是朋友的一种表现，因为这就是我的世界，只是因为是你，惟独是你，才会在你面前表现出如此的我。如果你能理解，就笑笑接受，你也应该表现出真实的你，因为我们是朋友，不要因为我的行为，而让你丧失自我世界的原则。真实的我们会有矛盾，却不会让矛盾升华为一种冲突，这就需要各自的谅解。只有如此才会有友情。可以互相生气，赌气，但是平静过后，我们仍旧可以笑笑，还是继续以往的生活。友情里不需要因为对方的存在而改变自我。改变了自我，也就改变了友情的界限。会渐渐成为一种迷恋，也就导致爱情的产生。

右手的爱情，左手的友情。

　　我看到幸福走过我的世界，我正走过幸福……

sTage eveNt + Random

2009-03-01T23:52:00.013+08:00

finaLLY,COMPLETED!
i waS damn tireD in diz 5 dayS~~
workiNg an event aT Pavilion,a bRand callEd STAGE!

waS really pissED off~~~
i doNno y,buT i felt tht if i continue workiNg there,wiLl damaGe my futurE!
i'M goNna to give up the 1st daY,but my teacheR said duN work til like tht,muz complete since u haD promisEd!
theiR makE up artisT make up skilL,Really....OMG!!!!
i diDn't mean i weRe the besT,but atleasT i cAn replaCe theiR plaCe!
aFter saW it....
i anD angelinE waS......"WTF make up is diZ"???=="

noe tht got vacancy of fulL time,but....No tHX!
eveN the salarY is high compaRe v otheR!
i calleD angeliNe get a trY at there 1st,not ngaM onlY resign,
i noE shE neeD moneY!lolZ....

damN delighteD,i caN resT edi!=)

somE pic duriNg eveNt!

ProuD tht v'rE studeNt fRom xpRessioN maSteR!!!!

boreD tiL ntH to do!=(

waitiNg the day....

loVe diz~~

Me_cHloE_AngeliNe

pRefeR sTraigHt oR curly?

suddeNly....
suddeNly....
SuddenlY....
suddeNly the feeLing waS so so so sTronG,i'M findiNg the reason for iT!
M and H which is beTteR?
i askiNg myself,buT couldn'T geT the answEr!
noe tHt i haD promisEd,i'M tryiNg haRd now......

*big sigh*

waitiNg u to say it out,
but......wheN tht u williNg say it tO me?

iS thT the only way for mE????

iF diStanCe haviNg 1000 stepS betweeN us,aS loNg as u sTridiNg ouT 1st step,999 step oF the others leak i'Ll towarDs on u!

nitEz...^^