wisH u....

i'M sorrY to make diZ decisioN,
but i reallY feel beTter now!

trY to puT dowN mE....even it is harD!
i haVe been waiting him lasT timE,althought i noE he dun loVe me anymoRE~~buT finallY i caN't get wat i wan,wat i wisH!!
wheN i cloSe my eyEs,u waS losT!!!
i nEEd sum1 iN my worlD,but noT u....i wondeR where he is??
juZ to tolD u....
u'Re wastiNg time 4 thE waiT.....
i caN do iT,y u can't?
TIME CAN CURE EVERYTHING!

i'LL 4get all the memories from u....
i caN't thiNk anymoRe...
u are a good guyz,but not 4 mE!
anyway.....thx 4 wat u did b4!!!

dun worry about mE....
i'm mature enuff,and i noe wat should i do oR shouldn't!
i will find a better than u!!=)

take caRe....
n
when u find sum1 caN replace me,told me!
i wiSH u....^^

*BYE FROM NOW*

FXxK oFF plZ!!!!

whY
r
yoU
so
ChildisH???
anD immatuRe???

u noE wat u done will make mE feel angrY?

buT u still do.....

SHit................

gEt oFF my liFe noW!!!!!!

*=="* swT N saD *T.T*

sum1 brokE my heaRt.....

hE say i 'zi lian' wor....

y say so woR？？

i ugly den ma neeD to zi lian lo!!

haTe hiM!!!!=p

his namE........S.K.K.H!

24/10/2008~~i paSS!!!=)conGratZ...^^

wooHoo....
finallY i paSS my exAm...
b4 exaM....i got a nightmare!!act...i still not reallY confidence v diz exam~~coz fail 1st timE edi,iF still fail....i reallY donno wat to do!!!i keep worrieD about my exam.... when i reached kl plaza,walk to the lift....shiT!!!mY 'SHU UEMURA DEPSEA WATER' drop to the flooR....tht was a gifT from chloE when i do heR model!!heartburn~~~T.T expensiVe u noe...summoRE shu uemura de leH!!i also bu she de buy....150ml....noW i think goT 15ml left!!!damn baD luck....
tHt time i reallY scaRe i fail my exam agaiN!
luckly i pass....
principal say shE likE my make up so much,the colouRs i usE is so so so so niCe!hahaz...anD she asked me a questioN....
Principal : y u caN't do tht oN tht daY?
mE : ==".....(no respoNd at all)
really swt...i donno how 2 answer heR,coz i can't accepT i'M the 1 also!
arounD 12 sumthiNg,i finished my exam,den v go having our lunch at kl plaza....aftEr tht v go 1u hang ouT!oN the waY....i geT a cal from henrY(my kai gor),he asked me whether free to have a luncH oR not??he cuming back from klang,i call him wait me back from 1u...den he say cal me back later.....

1U....
i buy a tube shirt 4 pei jun,(thxful present)she choose herself de,i think she will like it!!!:) afTer i reached home,i cal henrY....he told me tht he back to klang jor....swt lo~~came down 4 lunch den go back klang work pulak.....i feel disappointeD caN't meeT hiM,coz sinCe he went to klang work,v really long time no c jor!but he say....will cal me if he come back next timE!i hope so....

fEw pic during mY exam....
enjoy it^^

i so damn hot durinG exaM!

worried!

tRy my besT..=)

praY 4 mE^^

paSS joR onlY can c me smilE...

lolZ....cutE!!@_@i like diz piC

mY modEl...pei juN

guEss heR agE!

thX to b my model!!

my teacheR....liNg!

i caN relaX joR lo...
so happy^^
aNd i'm waitinG 4 sum1 de presenT....lolZ!

anyway...
thx 4 all tHe ppl tHt supporT mE!i appreciatE alot!!
muackz...loVe u guyz so mucH!

24/10/2008...ResiT exam daY...

hahaz...if i paSs,sum 1 wannA giVe wat i waN!!

'eheM',dun break promiSe wor......lolZ...

goiNg to exaM now....

aLL the besT evelyN^^

wisH mE good luck~~~=)

muackz...thx 4 u guyz suppoRt mE!!!

WAIT MY GOOD NEWS!!=p

byE*~~

=)

今天突然很想用华语，好像比较能表达我的心情。。。

为什么人总是在失去后，才懂得珍惜呢？
我以为我能不在乎....
我以为我能承担....
我以为我能够坚强....
我以为......
为什么知道后却还是崩溃了？
原来都是自以为。。。

越在乎的人，反而越会对他产生误会；
越在乎的人，反而犯错越不能原谅；
越在乎的人，反而对他会越不客气；
越在乎的人，反而越会装作不在乎。

我爱你的心，你从来都不会去珍惜，当你失去我时，你才来问我.....为什么不再爱你了？我只能回答.....对不起，我已经不再爱你了！你知道吗？我不断缝合自己的伤口，但你却轻易在我已缝合的伤口，不断划上一刀，我的伤口因你不断地广大！如果爱我，请别伤害我；如果不爱我，请你把我的心还我！不要再哭着说爱我了，这样我会放不了手，更离不开你！你要的自由我还给你了，也希望你过的幸福！我会带着微笑离开的。。。。此时此刻的我，心里无法有恨，只想问....为什么你是你？为什么我是我？
爱一个人就让她走，如果她回到你的身边，她永远都会属于你。。。如果不，她从来就不属于你！
我！只不过是一个平凡的人而已...要幸福的人！
你放心，我会照顾好自己。。。也会去找寻我的幸福哦！希望你可以找到比我更好的。。。祝福你~~再见了！

whaT i.....???

i hopE u'll noE tHt,

wAt i think...

waT i wan...

wat i feel...

wat i say...

waT i dreaM...

waT i praY...

waT i hopE...

n...

wHo i loVe...

iF i do oR donE anythiNg thT leT u mistrusT oR fEel uneasY.....

i'M heRe apologiZe~~~

i'M soRry!!!!

trUe loVe

tRuE loVe is noT hoW u forgeT,
buT hoW u forgiVe.....

noT hoW u listeN,
buT how u understanD.....

noT waT u sEe,
buT how u feEl.....

anD not hoW u leT go,
buT hoW u holD oN!


suMtimeS u toT it is trutH,
but nop!

realizE tht.....caN't continuE anymoRE...
y shoulD geT diZ endiNg?

i really trY thE besT to b the 1~~
buT caN't!!!

是你给了我再次爱人的勇气，
然而。。。
为什么。。。
却也是你。。。
给我放弃爱人的决心！

~*faLl foR u*~

diZ is nOt wat I intEndEd...
I always swOre to U I'd neVer fall apart
u alwAys thouGht tht I was stRonGer
I may have failEd
but I have loVed U fRom the staRt~~

So breAthe in dEep
Breathe me iN
I’m uRs 2 keep
and hold oNto ur worDs

CoZ talk is cHeap
And reMember me to9
when u’re asleep

BEst thiNg aboUt toniGht's tht wE’re nOt fightiNg
Could it be that we hAve been thiS way b4....

I know u dOn’t thiNk that I aM tryiNg,
I know u’Re weaRing thin down 2 tHe coRe!

but hold uR breAth,

Becoz to9 will bE the niGht tht i will fAll fOr u!

OvEr aGaiN~~
don’t mAke me chaNge my miNd
Or I won’t live to C anotHer day

I swEar its true
BcoZ a guyZ like u is imposSible to find

~u’re impossible 2 find~

kiLl me plz~~

aRRg....
waT happeN v diz montH??
alot oF baD stuff happeninG v me!!!

1st=1 borke v him!
2nd=i fail my exam
3th=my leg....haiz...get alot wound when go pD!
4=interview....fail
5=???? c til the end~~~

aCt...my interview iS on mon,coz of the shooting i have to delay til tuesday!after back from the shooting i almost 4geT i havE a interview oN tuesdaY...shit!waT also haven ready.....
photo?no....
model?no....

i plan to take photo on the early morning,but my interview 10 o'clock leh.....where should i go??i cal babe to b my model,luckly she free.....next morning,i go n fetch babe and v go hartamas to turn around,c whether got shop open or not...but no also.....den babe say try to go bangsar mayb can get...hu~~~finally...i found it!!!but need 15 min to complete!!!i noe i'll b latE,i sms a person in chaRge M.A.C to told tht i'll b late around 15 min!
my msg.....fantasy~~lolz!=)
"miss doris,eve here from xpression masTer!i'm so sorry,i'll b late 4 15 miN,becausE the traffiC kinD oF jam heRe...i'm here apologizE to u,as i have really the passion become one of ur crew.hope u can give me aN oppoRtunity!"
act...babe type it 1....hahaz!
v reach arounD 10.20 a.m,she cal me do a beaty make up 4 her,around half an hours~~~~i done!!!
u noE FTW she tolD me?she say make up artist's place is full!!!hey,should tell me early wat....wasteD my time!!!i reallY so damn mad.......
aftEr tht stupid interview v go have lunch aT kim garY,den i acc babe buy a dress tht she gonna use to dance....

parking place.....
babe cal me drive to in front...she go n pay the parking fees.....and...i drivE to the 1 waY road,keep give ppl hon!!
unfortunately,wheN i movE backward my caR collidE with the stupid iron!!!i tot wun b serious....but when i reach home.....saw iT.....the feeling......like killing me!!!!shit...waT the hell is going on????i feel die is better than live now!!!
heRe to write....
number 5=my car.....wuwuwu~~~T.T

haiz....no body can help me!!!!
juz let me alone.........dun caRE me!!o.O

unfoRgettaBle daY...

unforgettable day??
10/10/2008...
i fail my prO beautY courSe....1sT timE feEl so daMn moody...immediate cRy wheN i geT tHe result....i can't control at alL!haiz...skip it!!!feel wanna cry again when i mention iT!!


12/10/2008
i weNt to porT dickson haVe a shootinG at theRe,1st time go outdooR shootiNg,really can noe waT is tired!!!
a few pic i took aT theRe....
^^

suRvin N mE~~

i like diZ pic^^

i still thinkiNg about u....

bleR=p

^^muackz,i love myself!

nicE??

nTh to write anymoRe....i hope....i can paSs v next exam!!
tomolo....i got a inteRvieW at M.A.C,gooD luck to myself!^^
niTe...

wink*~~

TaggeD bY joyCe

Tag A
1. Who tagged you?
-joyCe

2.What's the relationship between you and he/she?
-oF coZ friends...

3. What do you think about he/she?
-ehem....smarT,talktivE,playful gua~~i donno act,noT noE heR very well!=p

4. What kinda soul mate she/he needs (mentally and physically)?
-doNno...=="

5. What kinda person you think he/she will ended up with (mentally and physically)?
-=="u taggEd a fren tHt donno uR stuFf leh!!!

6. What kinda person she likes?
-a guyZ thT treaT her v sinceRe i think~~^^


Tag B
THE SELF
[01] Real name: TaN siEw liNg
[02] Nickname: EvelyN
[03] Married: sooN....c who williNg lo!!
[04] Zodiac Sign: ViRgo
[05] Gender: FeMale
[06] Age: 19
[07] High school: JiGss
[08] College: college?b4 froM xxx...learninG make up now~~~XpressioN mastEr academY
[09] Height: 166cM
[10] Weight: 50Kg i thiNk...daMn fat!!
[11] Do you like yourself: oF coZ....i treaT myself juZ likE priNceSs
[12] Piercings: woohoo...alot!=)nosE haVe it also!
[13] Right or left: leFt 7 + righT 4 onlY + nosE =12~~lolz
[14] Are you a freak: no...
[15] Hair: reD+brow gua...donno!!i wisH my hair voileT....
[16] Skin: all my freN say i fair likE ghosT...=="
[17] Allergic: daMn!!!all parT oF wholE evelyN~~
[18] What are you doing now: answer all these question lo...what else??
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: bath...peapare going to class later!
[20] What will you do 10 years later: iF i noE,i'M goD!!!

THE FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: nO,v my auntY!
[22] Siblings(included you): eldeR bro + Me = 2
[23] Eldest: bRo...name:Ash oR andriK
[24] Youngest: i'M the 1...
[25] Love/hate your family: daMn loVe n miSs them!especially mY prettY moM~~

THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: i thiNk so....i wisH he will b minE foreveR!
[27] If yes, who is he/she: noNe of uR busineSS...hahaZ!
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: caRe me N understand me aloT....
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: zZzz....secret!!
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): No foR suRe~~
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): donno leH...^^
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: No....eveN got i also saY no,i havE to accept all oF hiS defEct
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: i anSwered NO tOo!!
[34] Ever argue with your other half: 'i don't believe there are any couple has no argument..'i agrEe joycE answer!=)
[35] You with your other half since: since...since...since~~the daY i saY yeS to him!;)
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: leSbo?no for suRe,i'M sTrAighT!but alot of my freN lesbo...zzzzz
[37] Reasons you love your other half: reasoN?i juZ folloW my fEel!
[38] You and your other half in which stage: eheM...not to tel...i scare ppl will jealous!!
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: oF coz......him la!
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: eRm...still youNg...its to fast for thinking this!

THE FRIENDS
[41] Your first best friend: 1sT best freN?i 4geT heR name edi...=="
[42] Your first enemy: doNno....can'T recall!
[43] The friend you love the most(1 only): aloT....i appreciatE them!
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1 only): nO ones fOr nOw....
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: alot leH....iF i write down name of the list....really....omg!!
[46] Your most handsome boy friend: handsome?alot....
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: eRm...betraY...anD diFf character whEn shE is v mE!
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: betray,cheaT,anD bReak promisE!!!
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: cloSe freN?i think nopE...
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: nOpe
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: iGnorE theM...no morE fren for sure!
[52] If your friend betray you: trY b4...buT i 4givE her atlasT!
[53] If your friend woo your lover: i'll wisH them 4 suRe....wisH them no endiNg!
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: doNno waT to do....=="
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: hUh?impossiblE!

THE STUDIES (secondary schooL)
[56] Are you a good student: nope...
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: not really....
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: no 1 act....
[59] Always late to school/college: sometimes..buT i have reason!
[60] Your class: which class u mean?
[61] You love your seniors: huH?i donno them also!
[62] Seniors who you love the most: =="
[63] Your classmates good/bad: bOth
[64] Excellent result classmate: doNno,4get!
[65] Laziest classmate: noT me...=)
[66] Smart people: i think alot in diz world...
[67] Stupid people: same answeR....
[68] Good looking people: no answEr 4 diz!=="
[69] Ugly people: agRee joycE...sg wanG aloT,waT type also haVe!comE...i shoW u!!
[70] Funny people: haven meeT sum1 tht really funny 4 me!
[71] Cute people: i think i'M the 1.....hahaz
[72] Bad people: hoW bad u waN?
[73] Honest people: oF coz i hope is hiM~~~
[74] Acting people :thailanD aloT...
[75] You are what kind of people: donno,ask my fren if u wanna noe!

THE PREFER
[76] Lip or eyes: Eyes
[77] Hugs or kisses: botH
[78] Shorter or taller: taLler
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: spontaNeouS
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: botH also likE EL!!!
[81] Listener or Talker: liStenEr,i dun like to talk,nTh to say!
[82] Romantic or rich: botH i think....
[83] Good husband or good father: hUh??i'LL chooSe botH of them!

THE FUTURE
[84] Age to get marry: 25++
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 2 enuFf...boy elder,gal youngeR=)
[86] Career: still doNno...
[87] Salary: as hiGh as poSsible
[88] Retirement age: lolz...how i noE??
[89] Properties value: .....no answeR!!
[90] Wishes: aloT wor....lisT it ouT?

ppl i taggeD!
alicia
emMenT
kenji(if caN)

^sufFeriNg^

1 moRe daY to go....
tomolo tRail jor la....reallY omg!!!><
shoulD geT ready 4 tomolo!!

erm~~
hE date me 4 movie todaY,but i rejects!!coz i neeD to visiT dentisT afTer my class~~if not...mY teeTh gonna losT edi!!T.T hE saY will waIt me no matteR how loNg,izziT reallY?i scaRe to heaR tht act....coz normally,theY suddelyn will giVe up when u'Re readY to turn back.i'M not angrY abouT thT commenT,juZ disappointed when i saW wat he wrotE to heR!he tolD me juZ a jokE,bUt iF 'she' reallY think iT b4,hoW?will u juz give up me anD turN back to heR?today viEw his frenster agaiN,is losT.....he deleted!!!i realizE tht he really care about my feeliNg,but y i feel everythiNg is too late??when i begining v him,his frensteR caption edi havE....i noe wat he wroTe is not relation me at all~~but juz accepT iT!i doNno waT to do now....suffering~~o.O

eVelyn,shoulD stop thinkinG thosE stupiD stuFF edi...concentratE v my exam 1sT la.....=)
everythiNG will b all ritE....^^

eXam cumiNg sooN~~

2 moRe day to go~~~
finally...i finD isabellE to b my modeL!!!gReat...i no neeD correcT so much~~shE is so perfecT to me!=) 100% full correctivE aR + bump up....40 min only~~scare not enuff timE!><


stepS foR 100% fuLl corrEcTive (40 miN)

1. coNceAler =>coveR pimplEs,dark circlE n bla bla bla!!!
   
2. foundation
3. Cream shadinG =>i usE poweR de.
   
4. poweR
5. poweR shadiNg =>shadinG??iS really miraculous de lo...can makE u havE a perfect face shape!
   
6. eye broW =>diz is waT i worry...i spend much time still caN't balancE it!!><
   
7. eye colouR =>haRsh la,diz la,tht la.....aiyo!!headache~~~
   
8. eyelinER (natural)
9. cuRl lasheS =>diZ step i suddenly tHinK dou darl~~lolz...shE really cutE!!
   
10. mascaRa
11. bluSheR
12. lip lineR
13. lip colouR
14. touch up =>hahaZ...donno enuFF time to diz step oR not!!
    

Bump-up (20 min)

1. ploT lipstick V tissuE
2. powdeR undeR thE eyE
3. change eye shadow
4. f/lashes
5. change to fashion lineR
6. change blusheR
7. change lip colouR/lip gloSs

sigH...afTer diZ exam darl graduate edi....baBe leaVE me,darl alSo leavE me!!T.T nobodY waN me...buT babe i still often go out v her,coz livE near by mE....v havE a faR distance witH daRl!>< buT i'lL learN to go heR placE,deN can meeT heR agaiN jor~~^^i miSs u...u n babE will alwayS in my heaRt,no matTer wat happeN!!muackz...loVe u all!!
aftEr exam wilL goinG to babe birthday paRtY,Mardigrass!!!!

daMn...really daMn!!!y i keep drop teaR??i caN't control myselF to think thosE fuxxinG stuFF~~u tolD mE juz a jokE,buT 4 mE iT is a hurT,u noE??sTop cryiNg evelyN....no man wortH uR teaRS!!!mY heaRt will nevEr got back to uR homE,i apprEciaTe u juZ likE hoW mucH i appreciate mY liFE;u pierceD mY heaRt juz likE how easY to pieRceD petal oF rosE!!
如果你认真想过，你就会明白我为什么会离你而去，看来。。。你明白了！！

aNsweR???

i vieW hiS frensTer juz now....
likE gonNa to told myselF,i should stop now....i should!!

wake up plzzzzzzz............u can't prohibit wat he do!!!u noE????

but how come.......i feel sad n disappointeD when i saW everything?if u still loVe me hoW can do tht to mE?my hearT....really brokeN v diZ momenT!!

is diz the way good 4 u to finD ouT uR tRue love??
iF yeS.......i'LL leT go~~~

i thiNlk......................haiz

teaCh mE waT caN i do noW?aRRg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no choicE???

i donE weLl in my makE up today~^^
shoulD keep the standaRd til exAm day.......Evelyn Tan muZ trY uR besT!

i haviNg dinneR at pizzA huT v my 3 cousiN juz noW,theY really quite fuNNy de lo....chaT v theM i gonna vomiT blood~~acT....i dunwan eaT de,i dietinG de leh....buT tHe flavor reallY make me fEEl......aisk~~

lolZ......funny pic!!

so fakE....toT ppl stupiD de meh?

hE is thE eldeR brO oF tHt two stupiD guyz!

waitiNg pizzA~~

mushrooM soup....=="suxxxxxxx!!!

wheRe aM i??feel werid rite?acT....i goT took pic de lo,but damn ugly...so dunwan posT it!!theY saY mE faT lo......broke heaRt...T.T,dunwan bRing theM eaT nexTtime!!=p

'wHo am i 4 u?a fren tHt cariNg u so much?a petty thief camE uR world to steal uR heaRt?oR a clown tHt leT u feeL idiot n foolisH?'waS a pM 4 my msN........u noE i'M sayiNg u....waT u really waN?duN tHink it iS a gamEs,if not.......u'll regret!!!i mEt a doublE character guyz again....4tH edI~~

haiz....he still the same....i fEel myselF so useleSS~~WTH..........my heart feel paiN now,like i gonna losT a person tHt really importanT.....bUt hOw comE my feel keeP stop waT i goiNg to do??izzit really can't turn back anymoRe?

goiNg to sleep now.....so sleepy!!!
nitE.........=)

_*LoVe is blinDly*_

aRrg...daMn sieN now lo!!yesterdaY i sleplt at 5a.m,and now so early woke up!!haiz....=(~~~doNNo y i thiNk alot of thing about hiM....should i???sigh...i feeL singel is better rite now...i damn scare single b4,coz i'M really neeD a persoN caRe of mE!!'loVe is always hurT,but without loVe liFe is meaningleSs...'izzit?but 4 me....y should continue iF it is hurT??

fEEder msg me yesterdaY,abouT thE................aiks,donno how 2 saY nEh!!he say can change my life,lolz.....really?i wish to change my liFe now!^^4geT all tHe sadnEss,staRt my new lifE!!

30th oF sep....
darL invitE mE to a chaT rooM,deN i kneW two guyz from theRe...EmmeNt n LeO!they R freN act.....is quite fuNny whEn i 1st timE chaT v theM!but i stilL abit confuSe,make me blur v tht chat rooM!!!deN leO aDD me to his lisT.....v staRteD chat froM the daY~~~=)
hMM.....hE brEaK v heR eX 2 yearS ago,but he still loVe n misS his eX alot!....he donno whether should wait or not,coz his ex maRRieD!!!omg~~~hE is reallY a blind passion guyZ.....he tolded me tht he often drink alcoholic tO anesthesia himself,deN he wun thinK mucH about his eX anymore??how about 2nd day?alcoholiC iS really bad v health....bUt is tht the waY he chooSe is rite??

2nD oF sep....
01.34.16A.M~~hE pM me...i still not yet sleep v tht nite....watching drama theRe....=)he tolded me tht he drunk and keep saying about his eX...i'm stupid i thinK,coz my advise iS useleSs 4 hiM!4 me....juz do wateveR u like to do,if u think it is worth!anD i thinK my caRe is tOo ovEr jor...leT hIm feeL strEss!he ask Me izzit scaRe tHt he will fall in loVe v mE...??i think it is impossible.....

3th of sep....
i daMn moodY,coz i juz break up v hiM!!!i keeP drop mY teaRs when sms-iNg v him.....heaRt bRokE agaiN~~~i wisH v didN't happeN anythiNg n now still thE samE,but.....eveRythinG iS changE!he is not belong to me anymore!!T.T tht daY....doNno y i bcomE leo'S sistEr,anD he become my bRo....=="hahaZ....GOOD!!!iT is really gReaT~~~~

4th oF sep....
bluR,bluR aNd bluR!!
i starteD confusE n suSpecT v waT he saY,i doNno which i have to hear....fren oR sis?whicH u wan??haiz....anD my minD still thinkinG the momenT v kenJi~~~~i'M really a idiot gf...i caN't give wat i have to hiM!i'm soRry...

5th oF sep....
leO ask me...'u like me'....hahaz.....
i answer him of coz~~iF not how 2 b hiS siS??and he tolded me thT i'Ll regreT if tht day he didn't say wan me b his sis,coz i neveR c him,never understand hiM!i suRe understaNd waT r u thinking~~~he saY if 1 day he can let her go,he will meet mE!he called me give him sumtimes,he will fall in love v mE!aS a siS oR eveN a fReN....i caN't do thT to u!i juZ wisH tht u can b happy alwayZ,if wan u 4get all the past,it is really cruel!!siNce i read uR blog,i realizE tht u really lovE ur ex so much!dun bcoz of me u forcE urself to 4geT heR,eveN 1 daY....u really caN put dowN,buT ur heaRt still will b thE samE!!b uR sis,i still will take care of u....juz like my real brotheR.....=)Rmb got anything muZ tel mE....

wisH hiM happy alwayS,anD Really mEet sum1 thT caN cuRe hIM!!!^^

ok,juz stop heRe!i neeD to reply keNji dE msG jor~~~~^^

holD on?oR leT go?

promiSe....wun let myself drop any tears again!!
he get a lasT chance from me,but i didn't give him any answer,coz i donno wat answer should i give!!!juz to say....if i give up u,is not uR fault...u're really good 4 me,juz mayb diz is the way bettEr 4 uS~~dun worrY...i'll take care myself!!promise me....u muz happy without mE~~

也许我们就像一场电影，一场没有结局的电影！
看着你的背影离我越来越远时，我才明白。。。这一刻的你。。。已不再属于我！一切都不能从来了！
is tht my answeR??i donno,really donno....who can answer me??
haiz,better dun think too much!!!

juZ now i go a mall.....saw a gal quite pretty de,den hor.....i do a foolish thing lo...i stop her n ask her whether can b my exam model or not?noe y i say 'foolish'??she took my number anD ask me about the exam stuff....den she ask mE got waT aDvantages....zzzz............lolz!!!so straight wor...so dare to ask~~~den i ask her wat she wan....she tolded me thT waT also dunwan,juz need $$$$$!!!shiT...i dunwan if nEed to pay~~i neeD finD another aS sooN as possible!!!

huRt agaiN,aGain n again!

fEeder.....tHe 2nD of u appeaR agaiN!buT u'Re still thE oNe hurT mE so mucH!T.T

'i know that you are good can accept all my weaknesses but...you maybe cant accept my attitude...'
>yeS,i aM!!!uR attitude makE me b crazY~~~~aRRG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

'no matter what you said before, dont mind this and that...but ask yourself, truthly ask yourself...after a period of time...do you really dont mind..??it wont be tired??'
>i'M tirEd...buT i really duN minD!!aS uR gf i neEd to accept all oF uR defEct........

'you say no, mean no...but use your heart to answer it...dont use your mouth..maybe this is all my negative thinking..or maybe its true..nobody know it..'
>uSe my heaRt??really funNy...if i use my hearT,u can feeL it?the answer is nO!watever wat i saY,u juZ will think uR owN ideas,not mine!!!ya..u'Re rite,nobody will noe it!!it will b my secret now n ever!!!

'if i say i still love you and more after that night...do you believe??i think its hard to believe..'
>wat 'i think its hard to believe'???c....diz is juZ uR owN ideas!u got ask mY feeliNg b4?

'if one day, you give up on me, not because you forget me, its because you too love me??'
>aCt....i noT meaN abouT u!!u noE i like to think those stuff den wrote down,but u...........haiz!!

'ask yourself will get a better answer i think..'
>yaya...so u got it the answer edi....happY??dun havE a idioT gf anymore!!!

'together with me maybe regretful, but make it worth..i know myself very well...become your bf..is too tough for you...'
>i no regreT aT all....i chooSe myself.....u'Re a good bf,juZ i'm noT!!!

'thanks for accompany me for this few months'
>no nEed thx to me,u'Re the 1 to paY ouT so much!!!!

dUN turN bacK anymore....wisH u caN finD a beTter 1 thaN me!i'M really feel blissfuL wheN havinG u!thx 4 all the memories u given me....
sorRy..........

happy Day+moody day~~01/10/2008

i receiVe a laTe birthdaY fRom dEar~~^^i daMn like it!!thx my deaR....muackz....

niCe~nice~

yeR....no puRplE deN juz took piNk

SONY T77

i'll cherisH u 4ever.....hehe!!
next week goiNg a outdooR shootinG at porT dicksoN,so....dieT,can't eat sumthing edi!><

yesterday when i reacheD homE den fasTer msG hiM,but he didn't reply...i think he become pig edI!!^^til 3 sumthing i receive his msg....but he juz gaVe mE a indifference reply,i noe wat happen act....but y can't hiM juz straightforward tolD me waT happen~~~i noe i make him worRy....but i got tel tht i going out v freN,juz late reached home onlY!waT the big case happen?shiT!!!!aCt....i noe v getting far v each other,but i try to get it nearer...how come like got sumthing happen between us?oR i'm the persoN done wrong?say...juz say!!!!!he alwayS told me tht he scare to lost me,but did u noe....i'm the person tht let ppl hurT so much b4!i morE scaRe...i feel scary u noe??u promise me tht u wun b like tht jor de,but...how could i trust u?u do n do n do again!watever....u juz do watever u like!!i wun STOP u~~~~
daMn moody now...
i neeD sumtimes to cold down~~~